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Regular Poem: Not Sure About Former DAs Who Are Now Ambulance Chasers, Either, TBH

21 Apr

don’t get the wrong idea here
on the two points you’re probably worried about

1. i do know how a lot of professions work
2. i do have friends who are not imaginary

but that said

every time i’m talking to someone
who’s asking me a lot of intrusive questions
that i’m uncomfortable answering
and i can feel myself getting

riled up
worked up
torqued up

(i gravitate to the slangy partitives
[verb-preposition combos that work together as a verb–evidenced by their unit’s synonimity with a single word]
from an indiscernible old-timey western and or/southern dialect
they seem to fit the best for the kind of
upset
[see what i mean about synonimity]
i get
just a lathered frenzy
where i want to julia sugarbaker rant
and point out every personal professional moral intellectual and financial flaw i’ve ever noticed
about the person i’m angry with)

i imagine
the former da who’s now an ambulance chaser
standing next to me
in a kind of ugly statement necklace
sloshing a little scotch onto my shoulder as she half-drunkenly advises me
“you don’t have to answer that
nor should you”

thanks counselor
i know
that’s why i made up a version of you to say it to me
a version that’s like a lady version
of my erstwhile dad
and ain’t that a kick in the head

i ought to invest in a regular ghost
and be done with it

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Regular Poem: I May or May Not Have Any Idea What Realtors Actually Do, Part II

20 Apr

as it turns out
i was right
partially anyway

or maybe i willed it into existence

probably not
that’s never worked for me ever before
so
it was probably all just fortuitous
just some personalities luckily flung together
just how you have to be when you’re in that business

like you don’t have to be a priest and therapist as a chiropractor
although a lot of them i know are
you could get by and prosper
just adjusting
asking no personal questions
giving no hugs
saying no prayers
but God sent me to mine because she does those things
and i need those things

but a realtor has to know your sins and your troubles
so she can absolve them and ameliorate them
to sell your stupid house for a reasonable price
has to be kind and personable
to gain you as a client
has to be caring and honest
to buy you a house you’ll like

so i feel vindicated

i did confess
and i did ask about houseboats

i didn’t cry in her arms
i’m sure that comes later

Regular Poem: I May or May Not Have Any Idea What Realtors Actually Do

19 Apr

don’t worry
i’m still hating rosebushes and feeling romantic about the full moon
still saying plenty of weird stuff to plenty of middle-aged ladies
still being super good looking and mad that no one will turn their brain on about it

just out here
existing
and being known and unknown
and being scared and aggressive
and being loud and reticent

just over here
living
sort of

i’m meeting a realtor tomorrow
and i’ve been thinking about how our conversation will go
like will i start with
“i read a book recently about a suicidal ex-beauty queen realtor and–”
or will i start with
“how do you feel about fratricide”
or will i be normal
cool collected professional
or will i stutter and ask stupid questions

it’s a crapshoot
nobody to blow on my dice either
and i just today lost sixty bucks at the casino
so my luck’s not looking so hot

“what are you looking for” she might say
“fuck rosebushes” i might reply
“i’m sorry what” she might say brow scrunched pen freezing above her clipboard
“what i meant to say was do you have any houseboats”

of course she doesn’t
this isn’t fucking sausalito

i’m kind of excited though
a new opportunity for a new friend
someone new to look at and tell my troubles to in a new context
i feel like i’d be the perfect best friend for a realtor
she could call me and be like
“this house i’m thinking of listing might be haunted
will you come with me”
and i’d be like
“duh girl”

it’s probably a bad sign
that i’m fantasizing about
an instant connection and intimate friendship
with someone who just wants a commission out of me
but it’s so sexy to me somehow

she’ll know where i live
literally and metaphorically
what mental emotional journey i took to get there
what i want out of a home and why
it’s personal

but i’m the girl who makes her chiropractor her priest and pychiatrist
so why shouldn’t i do the same
to a realtor

it probably goes without saying
i’m intrigued by old-timey medicine
the kind that’s half alchemy half superstition
herbs and poisons and potions and bizarre theories
no training no regulation
just ideas and pluck

i feel the urge to confess a lot of things to this woman i haven’t even met yet
and she’ll scroll through her offerings
she’ll be wearing attractive reading glasses as she does so
and she will find the perfect thing
she will read my mind and fix my problems

don’t worry
i’m still very stupid about so many things
but at least i’m trying something new

Regular Poem: Oops! All Sauerkraut!

17 Apr

look
i like sauerkraut as much as the next girl
who likes sauerkraut exclusively as a condiment
but it’s no wonder no one eats at this diner
except for me when i’ll be late to choir practice
if i go to a good diner

like
in what universe
does a reuben have less corned beef than sauerkraut
and no discernible thousand island whatsoever

oops! all sauerkraut!
i had a dream once
that instead of my alarm ringing
it was showering me with sauerkraut
that’s how this reuben was

i’m not worked up about it
i’m not mad at the diner
i like the waitress who may or may not be the only person who works there
i’ll just know next time
not to get the reuben
or the bierock

it really serves me right
for trusting diners with german food in the first place
like get real
and get a burger

but i just get so excited
when i see a bierock on a menu
and i didn’t even want a reuben
i wanted a tuna melt
on regular rye not marbled rye

come to think of it
i still want a tuna melt
who even serves those anymore
what was i expecting

certainly not so much sauerkraut

i’ve been having a lot of diner issues lately
i ought to cook more
but that would result in
a half can of sauerkraut
molding in my fridge after i ate exactly one
reuben
and exactly one
hot dog

another sauerkraut story
my mom used to make her own
it’s fermented rather than pickled
you know
and she would make it in a bathtub
like a ’20s bootlegger
if only we’d delivered it to side dish speakeasies
out of the back of a dodgey model t

i love that a popular
french term of endearment
is my little cabbage
if anybody ever called me that
it would have to be ironically
knowing that i’m really more
of a sauerkraut
kind of girl

Regular Poem: Femme Fatale BTS

16 Apr

She walked into my office a few minutes past closing
and a few hours past my being sober.
Even through the whiskey, I could see
she was all sharp angles and soft skin;
there was a secret on her red lips that was
different from the secrets in her red head.

“I don’t usually take new clients this late in the day,” I said.
“And I don’t negotiate. Ever. You either
agree to take my case or you don’t,” she said, her voice a hiss of steam from
the radiator of her mouth

a mouth I very much wanted to tap on,
make hiss more.

xxx

Thursday
case local cut-rate gumshoes’ offices
assess for degree of misogyny, alcoholism, impulsivity, receptiveness to feminine wilesspreadsheet?

Friday
buy new red lipstickmatte, long-wear
have mourning dress altered to specs of chosen detective
buy eye drops

Saturday
kill husband
hide and obfuscate evidence

Sunday
apply eyedrops before cops arrive for questioning about dead husband
assess detectives for degree of misogyny, alcoholism, impulsivity, receptiveness to feminine wilesspreadsheet?

Monday
rest day
hole up, pretend to grieve
brainstorm ways to pit police detectives against private detective
yard workallergic reaction will make voice husky and sexy tomorrow

Tuesday
use eyedrops again
chain smoke in case allergic reaction to yard work hasn’t made voice husky and sexy enough
SEDUCE SEDUCE SEDUCE

Regular Poem: Get Over Yourself

12 Apr

i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again
continue to say it and say it
i ought to take my own advice

get over yourself
i say to my audiobook narrator
get over yourself
i say in not those exact words to people i love

get over yourself
i say to myself

and when i do
it’s so rewarding

there’s contentment in it
like a hammock nap
but better
because not only am i relaxed
but i’m also validated
internally externally
the push and pull
of a selfish vain person prone to brooding
who knows she’s right
about the things she’s riling herself up about
but also about
how she should get over herself

she’s selfish and vain but also thoughtful and giving
and when she gets over herself
she can be the best of herself

i ought to take my own advice
for everyone’s sake

Regular Poem: Motives for Weird Behavior

11 Apr

there was this guy in high school
who always opened a bag of skittles
poured them all out and sorted them by color
before he would eat them
i think he had a system for which colors he ate together and a sequence
for when he ate them

at the time
i thought he was doing it for attention
cultivating an eccentricity to appear
interesting and different

he may have been
or he may have been compelled
or he may have thought it was the most logical and enjoyable way to consume them

it was none of my business then
and certainly isn’t now

i’d react a lot differently
now
i think

i might ask him
and he might tell me

i think i asked him then
and he gave some glib unsatisfying answer
and instead of knowing we were both teenage idiots who weren’t fully self-actualized
i didn’t listen and consider with graceful ears
but heard what i didn’t want to hear
and judged according to his teenage idiot words
and my teenage idiot brain

i’d like to think
we could converse more honestly
more thoughtfully
now

but maybe not

i still say a lot of stuff
that people hear wrong
or they hear it right but i’ve said it wrong

mind reading isn’t a thing
and shouldn’t be
but oppenness and forgiveness and
understanding that sometimes you don’t understand
go a long way

and anyway
sometimes people really do just do weird things
for attention

but i’m a pedantic blunt snob
what do i know
about other people’s internal processes that they happen to externalize in front of me

am i acting when i rant
am i performing when i do rage push-ups
am i a different character entirely when i analyze my choices

people think about other people
people think about themselves
people think about other people in relation to themselves

and it’s usually an open question
unresolved but elucidated upon
ad nauseum ad infinitum
to be forgotten and remembered
in fits and starts

the why is what really matters
and yet the why
is so often obscured
either deliberately or accidentally
mutual misunderstanding
and mutual suspicion
there is no grace in our mouths or ears

i want to listen and i want to talk and i want to comprehend
us both
but we’re all
so bad at it

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