Tag Archives: personal

Regular Poem: Happy Anniversary

29 Apr

she wears
a skirt suit
to toss her bouquet
a girl pelts them with rice
who’s got on actual bobby socks
and they drive off
in who knows
probably a studabaker
her taking off her tiny white gloves
him wearing a smart tweed sport coat
and giving the camera a rather dumbfounded stare
but she’s grinning
somebody probably said something
kinda naughty
and he’s the sweetest gentleman
and she’s well
she’s my alto buddy
who laughs and elbows me in the ribs when i say naughty stuff

i could say
i wish i would’ve been there
felt the cool metal of those folding chairs
in 1963
and watched as these two souls joined together
and fed each other cake
and were so young and handsome and full of unknown tomorrows

but that would be a half lie
and for all the naughty stuff i say
that she enjoys and indulges me in
i’m not a liar

i like them now
i like knowing them at this section
of life
and fawning over black and white photos
and hearing stories about all the vehicles they owned
when they lived in germany
and all the people
they kept
ridiculously and fortuitously running into there

seeing the hindsight
reveling in the miracles
identifying the stray pieces that God has quilted together

that only people
who have lived long and well and abundantly
can show you

Regular Poem: Hot Mic

26 Apr

I can think of better
ways to go,
but it’s right up there
in the top ten
below
being killed heroically foiling a kidnapping
and above
being mauled by a bear.

Her last words were,
“Is anyone else even singing?
All I can hear in my monitor
is my own throaty purr
in a popping void.”

Yes, that’s probably the best way
to go–
the speaker’s frayed wire
or whatever
conducting through
my Quik Trip drink
and lipstick
and I’m ash
and the worship pastor
says a short prayer
and goes on with rehearsal
as the EMTs haul
my still sizzling carcass
out of the sanctuary.

Witnesses say
she went out in a blaze of glory
singing glory to her Maker.
“It’s tragic,” the pianist mused,
“but somehow fitting.”
The combustion was limited
to one monitor stage left
and quickly contained.
Casualties: one alto
who could never remember
when to start singing harmony.

Yes.
Much better
than being murdered
by NPR.

Regular Poem: Self-Help

23 Apr

it’s
not even that
i don’t believe it
coming from myself
but i can’t even make myself say it
to myself

i’ll say it
to you
or to her
or to him

you’re valuable
tomorrow’s a new day
you can do this

i’ll say it
to anyone
and mean it

but the words
clog
in my own throat
to my own self
and turn into

you’re valuable-ish
tomorrow’s the same day
you could do this if

i can
look in the mirror
and say
you’re pretty

but that’s almost always followed by
beauty is passing
and charm is deceitful 
a woman who fears the lord

let me be a woman who fears the Lord
make me a woman who fears the Lord
change my heart and
change my mind and
change my thinking and
ch-ch-changes
turn and face the strange

Regular Poem: Sassy Shoulders

17 Apr

it didn’t make sense to me
until it did
one day i looked in the mirror
like weeks later
and i was like
yeah
those girls were right

it’s not like
nobody’s ever seen them before
work cycles through phases
just like my dreams
unlike the moon
because the moon makes sense

but still distinct phases
with discernible beginning and ending points
several weeks i’ll dream about
winning large jackpots
but i’m not excited
just worried
about how much tax will be taken out
and the next several weeks will be
that recurring cabin in the woods
where there’s always a different large dinner party
several weeks
the kids at work all want to pull my hair
the next several weeks
i get my shirt ripped off over and over

so it’s not
as if they’d never seen
my shoulders before

but sometimes
they are just
strikingly
more sassy
i guess

it’s nonsense
but
i’ll take it

Regular Poem: Myths and Legends

16 Apr

a good cry
is a myth
or maybe a legend

i’ve had a lot of cries
all dissatisfying

i cry
and i want to cry more
or

i cry
and i want to throw somebody
off a building
take a chainsaw
to somebody’s BMW
storm into a wedding and
pitch the cake into
the pinterest birdhouse card receptacle
call my congressman and deliver a long diatribe
take a nap

i’m never
cried out
and it never
is cathartic

but maybe it’s just not
within the capabilities of my personality

crying turns out
to just be another way
to rile myself up
my tears are vinegar
my face baking soda
and it’s all just a third grade volcano
the science fair
gives me a participation ribbon
sends me home until next year

crying in the shower
is all right
but that’s probably
more to do with steam
the cleansing of sinuses and skin
that transfers accidentally to soul

crying in the car
almost always a terrible idea

while somebody strokes your hair
and tells you you’re justified
really the only way to go
but that’s a luxury not often available

while you punch your heavy bag
8/10 recommend
can get messy, turn into
drinking a little too much bourbon afterward
but much better than standing over
raw chicken you’re trying to freezer package in individual servings

overall
a good cry is a myth
a necessary cry–
an overflow of garbage feelings
that manifests
sometimes while you’re taking a sledgehammer
to a shop vac that doesn’t achieve ample suction–
is
well
sometimes
necessary

Regular Poem: Gory Details of My Most Recent Illness

15 Apr

descriptions fit for gothic horror
all familial curses
obsolete medical terminology
symbols motifs haunting images
flowery prose
depicting both the physical symptoms
and the ensuing madness
winding metaphors
and then curt blunt
grotesquerie
a winding path of feeling and supposition
facts and fantasy
and fever nightmares
phantasmagoric in toto

all of it delivered via text message
with pics so you know it’s real

i wonder if all spinsters
go through the same stages
until they’re all
the same woman
who says condescending things to you
over a coors light at a garage party

like did she go through the
oversharing graphic descriptions of all three bouts of strep throat to anyone who would listen
phase
early in her spinsterhood

will i be the same kind of weird
she is when i’m
fifty five and have had the same
haircut for thirty years

does it even matter
will i even care
about how weird i am
by then

do i even care now
how weird i am

am i being
judgemental
misogynistic
ageist
amatonormative

really i’m just wondering
and just trying
to get rid of this strep

Regular Poem: Saying Things, Hearing Things

13 Apr

“They’re jealous because you’re cute,”
she said.
Of course she would.

Some people
say things to say things
or to manipulate
to scam
to mock
to accuse
thoughtless heartless fruitless.

And then there are the people
who say things to edify
to lift up
to strengthen
to bolster
selfless guileless.

It’s probably not true, what she said.
But she wouldn’t have said it
if she hadn’t have thought it
true.

She says
all kinds of things like that–
those things she believes and I
wish she were right about.
She says
all kinds of things,
and I always hear
her love.

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